I can NOT believe I am about to share this with anyone, but I shared with T and she was ok with it. We are going to talk about it more, but I was hoping that you all might have some thoughts on this.

I molested my brother twice, that I can remember. Once when I was 8 or 9 and when he was 3 or 4 and then another time when I was 10 and he was 5. I am so utterly ashamed at what I did. I have never been able to forgive myself. I know that I knew better because I was afraid of someone walking in. So....I KNEW it was bad, but I did it anyways!!! UGH!

I think it started with him about the same time his grandfather started molesting me.

I was such a horrible sister. I don't know if he remembers or not, but I can't help but feel like I may have ruined a part of him by my actions.

I am horrible, deserve punishment and just HATE myself.