This has apathy has mushroomed into me feeling badly depressed. It is many months since I have felt this bad. I don't understand how I got feeling so bad like this.

I spent Christmas alone, but got through that just fine. This evening I've gotten weepy suddenly, which hasn't happened in ages. I feel like life has gotten very unsatisfying and probably will only get worse.

I lost my sig. other 20 months ago. That was hard, but I healed from the initial tough grief and was making good progress adapting to being alone. I don't know what has happened that I feel so bad now.