@wildflowerchild25:

Life on disability benefits has it's disadvantages in that it is boring but with the level of difficulty you are having is it an option? I find it isolating for me but you have your husband and son so you won't have to deal with that part of it. Just sounds to me like the struggle you are having is unsustainable. Maybe it's me, i know i couldn't put up with the drama you are experiencing, but everybody is different, maybe it's somehow tolerable for you, we all get to decide for ourselves. If you think it's still worthwhile, all the power to you!