when I wanted to create a thread on this, I felt upset, and sad that a lot of my childhood was no more- things I used to know, people I used to know, even places I used to know... now long gone.

but now as I post this thread (or go to post it), I find I am conflicted about it all.

the radio stations I used to like as a child have all closed down. the school I went to as a child burned to the ground, and a lot of people I know have either moved on with their lives or passed on- and honestly I don't know how to feel about it.

do I feel sad that it's all gone and I have nothing to hold on to?

or happy that a lot of my childhood was pretty bad, pretty abusive, so it's a good thing a lot of it is going

it's just the memories attached to it all, I guess. without those memories of the old school, the old radio stations, I have nothing to hold on to (in the last few years, certainly)

*just putting my thoughts out their*