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Originally Posted by sarahsweets
Wow this is a loaded thread (I say that with positive vibes). I cant speak to all of it but I do have some thoughts. Do you have a mental health disorder or have you been diagnosed with a mental illness?
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No one has been able to diagnose me with any specific "label". So I don't really know.
The closest I received for a label
informally (not a formal diagnosis, as this doesn't exist as a psychiatric diagnosis), that I felt kinda fit me, somewhat, so well, that was not a mental illness, but a resemblance to one due to certain circumstances. (Sorry I do not wish to go into details on it) I.e it was not of an internal origin, or mental illness. That's what I was told, that I do not fit that diagnosis because it's not actually that but that my symptoms are because of those certain circumstances unrelated to mental illness.
I don't really know if that covers the whole story but that's what one of the psychiatrists told me. The current one decided to just observe me, which means there is no prescribed medication - other than Xanax on an "as needed" basis (which I requested myself and she agreed).
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The reason I ask is that personally I feel therapy alone in those circumstances isnt necessarily enough. I believe medication can be a good, possibly life saving adjunct to therapy.
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I would ******ing love medication that actually worked for my symptoms and wasn't addictive. So I'm not really on medication regularly. None worked so far like that. Antidepressants nah, several different antidepressants, I was in the end prescribed three different ones, not a change. I don't have typical depression either, anyhow. The depression tests (questionnaires) I've been given never ended up showing me as really depressed.
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Without regurgitating what you have been told or heard from other therapists, what is it you want out of therapy? Its ok to sound fantastical, I am not going to judge. Do you wish to be free of all your flaws and become a more perfect human? Do you wish to let go of your anger? Do you wish to become strong enough to leave your a-hole boyfriend? Do you wish to deal with long buried/childhood issues? Or do you simply want to deal with recent stuff, the here and now?
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Lol hm well. I don't even know. I just got this extremely strong hunch one day that "IT ALL HAS TO CHANGE". I've been trying to figure out that need to change ever since then. : P
But more specifically, I just want to stop feeling like I am gonna die soon all the time. I want to stop feeling all the horrible internal things. Things like that. I don't mean a panic attack.
Even more specifically, I want to have working, quality relationships. I want to put my life in order enough already, from it having fallen apart (from a crash, long story).
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Personally I do not think therapy has to deal with childhood issues, trauma or bad parents and abuse. For some, those issues have been put to rest. Some people need situational therapy like couples counseling. Some people want to make changes in their life but dont know what or how. Some want to make their relationships better, or at least tolerable.
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Well yeah, I mean. I answered your question before reading all these options. So I bolded the ones I relate to yeah.
But if I am really honest, I want a quality relationship. Not just tolerable
OK, in a general way. I was looking for emotional connection, really.
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I personally believe in most cases therapy has a shelf life. It can be different for everyone.
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What do you mean by shelf life?
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I feel that there are unethical therapists out there who will take advantage of vunerable clients in order to keep them as clients. Therapists can be sick too. I would be willing to bet there are some pretty sick therapists out there.
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Completely true. I've talked to someone who had a therapist like that. She took it to court. She said it was worth it.
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This isnt to say that there arent people who have suffered horrendous trauma and abuse, or have DID and many alters that may need therapy forever. That isnt my call. I think a good therapist knows when the therapy has reached its peak and not very much more growth will happen.
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I'm not that terribly concerned about personal growth being speeded up artificially all the time. I just want to get rid of the above issues. However much personal growth I'd need for that or if it is something else that I need or whatever.
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I would be really unhappy if I was labeled in a nasty way like you seemed to have been. BUT I also would turn it over quite a bit in my mind to see if there was any truth in it.
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Thank you, I mean I don't want to turn it over in my mind any minute longer. Had enough of it having spent so much time on that and having felt so horrible about it and everything.
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There can be truth in uncomfortable things that therapists and other professionals say but it doesnt mean you are a terrible person.
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I got that, that is something I figured myself.
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I know there is more I want to add but I need to think about it some more.
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Feel free to, I'd be curious.
