I went in to work late yesterday. I think I double dosed on seroquel the night before by accident because I was nearly non functional. I had to stay home and go back to sleep for awhile. When I got home I took a shower after dinner in an effort to stay awake but I still fell asleep from 6:30-8:30. Then of course I got restless and couldn’t fall asleep at a normal hour. I got up and did the dishes and watched my show. I took my PRN to calm the agitation because I felt like pacing the house but I didn’t want to wake anyone. Eventually fell asleep again around 1am.
Mood wise I kinda ran the gamut yesterday. Depressed, ok, agitated, ok again. My therapist is being nice enough to give up an hour of her Sunday morning and see me at 9am. She was on vacation last week so I didn’t see her. I honestly don’t have much to say in terms of coping skills since I’ve been using the ones I know. I guess I just want someone to complain to.
I’ve been overeating and I’m getting disgusted with myself. At first it was definitely vraylar but now I think it’s stress and emotional eating. My back is healed though so before I get dressed I’m going to do the yoga routine and core exercises. I’ll feel a little better at least if I do some movement. I’m also going to dye my hair. I followed advice from here and got the xmondo hair dye in super blue so I guess we’ll see!
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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