So last time I saw art T things were “off” as usual. We talked some about awesome T because I find it comforting and grounding. I shared about a session that T had to use the bathroom and was over the top trying not to trigger me. We had a good laugh and she commented on how caring he is… OK, all good… then a natural pause… Then art T asks if awesome T ever eats his lunch with me, I looked at her a bit perplexed and she said he ate his lunch with her a few times and she had always wondered…*pause*… if it was because she was, you know, different…. Because she was special to him. I said that if I meet with a therapist around lunch time I tell them I am OK with them eating in my session because I know sometimes things come up and they might not have the chance otherwise. She got quiet and looked at the ground for a bit before going back to how wonderful he was.
I was weirded out. Being *special* to a man was never a pleasant experience for me. It felt like she was begging the question of if he had ever been her therapist (she often goes on about how he knows EVERYTHING about her and still lets her work there). It kind of felt like she was competing with a new baby sister. IDK… just when I think things can’t get worse with her she comes up with a new way to make me feel weird.
I told Pdoc about the lunch thing and Pdoc was pretty upset about the inappropriateness of it and how she couldn’t think of anything appropriate a therapist might be trying to say that I could misconstrue as that.
So… IDK… I have an appointment with her tomorrow and, as usual, I don’t want to go. It feels like a huge waste of time and money. I will go anyway because I can’t cancel without being charged at this point. I am thinking about using it as an office training opportunity for my new-ish service dog.
What do you guys think???