I caught my husband watching live videos of women through an app. (Found out because when i went to pee at night, he left it open and bright on my face when he fell asleep) confronted him a year after because i found out he spent around 1k usd to get access to these rooms. (Guilty, for some reason had an urge to check his app subscription this one time, this was after 1 year of finding out) confronted him via a lengthy message since im terrified of confrontation and he apologized and promised never to do it again. Never talked about it after. 2 years after, found out he has a secret instagram account with ig sexual content sellers and found out he paid money again to get "exclusive content" to about 5 or 6 women? Found out about it through the laptop we use for our daighters online class. Confronted him after a month of contemplating if it was normal, was i overreacting, etc. We talked about it personally and i have expressed that i am not comfortable with it. Told him to delete temptation and he promised he will and that it was the least he could do. I told myself ill forgive him. But i cant seem to forget. 4 months into everything, i thought he changed, we decided to get pregnant with our second. I am turning into this spy monster, which i was previously not! I keep checking what he is doing, and im pretty sure he is still accessing his secret ig account and saving videos of these women everyday. He probably watches porn everyday. I am totally fine with watching porn, occasionally, but do men really do it everyday? He is a loving,hands on father and i should say a very nurturing and caring husband. He always cooks for me, does errands, affectionate with me, but he cant shrug off this habit.