I went to look at dogs at the Humane Society Shelter. I still have a lot of looking to do. Years ago I had a dog I loved very much. She died of cancer in 2006. Then my boyfriend had spinal surgery, so I was pretty busy with him. My bf died in 2020. I've been thinking about getting a dog ever since.

I just left the shelter. Got in my car and started sobbing. It's hard to manage a dog all by yourself. I remembered the years when my bf was in pretty good health. He and I took care of the dog together. We were a little family. We went to a very good doggy school. My bf would sit in the bleechers watching, while I would be down in the arena with our dog and all the other owners with dogs. Then we'ld go home and my bf and I would talk about how good our dog did at school.

It would be all different now.. I feel like I can't take on this rezponsibility without my bf tohelp me. I miss him so bad today . . . and what we had together.