Dear Old T,

I will be very surprised if you reply to my last email. I think we are probably done here, aren't we. If I could say a few final words to you, I would struggle to know what to say. In one breath I would want to say "thank you. Thank you for helping me all the times that you have helped me. My life has changed dramatically, in a lot of ways for the better, and I know you have played a part in that." In another breath I would want to say "F*'! You, and F*'! This. What a waste of time and money this has been. Thanks for that. I wish I had never met you... I wish I had never taken this path. Maybe there are some things you just can't heal from. Or maybe there are some people who just too selfish to be helped. Maybe I am one of those people."