I hear you... its so hard to determine what's the right amount to eat and whats normal. I kno i dont eat normal, thats actually why i moved in with a girl that used to have an anorexia. Crazy... not really. She's completely recovered and she doesn't even like restricting. She's so inspirational, but that's about it. She helps in little ways, but only when she's around. When she's gone, i fall apart. I realize that I'm the one that needs to make the ultimate decision to change. I'm not sure i'm ready yet, but i keep trying every day. It's such an emarrassing disorder, which makes it even harder to cope with. If you ever need anyone to talk to, i'm here. Just remember that you're in charge of your life, not ED, not a roommate that will cook for you, not your peers, YOU are. So love yourself and try to listen to what your body is saying and not your mind. ED is overpowering your mind. I feel like somewhat of a hypocrite saying this because i too listen to ED but thats something i need to work on too.