Struggling a bit today. Snowing and cold, so SAD is kicking in. Watching the news, which I have been doing lately even though I KNOW not to, is also causing negative thinking. Worrying about the future and what it holds or doesn't hold for me. Feeling fairly hopeless but trying to focus only on today. I don't understand how I can logically have so much going for me or in my favor but still feel so bleak. Should focus on dealing with my low self-esteem, impostor syndrome and hopelessness, but just can't seem to have the energy or mental capacity to do that. Just content to ignore the world and future. I really hate feeling like this, but have no ability to get myself out of it. Frustrating.