i have done several mapping excercises - and they change each time as i become more aware of just how complex this system is. i am starting to understand that what i (or they) went through was no small thing and that even though i may be the "person up in front" they do not necessarly want me to know everything (or think i need to know). Some (i have heard them say internally) say it would bring down the system for me to know too soon. So i have to be patient and trust that when (if ) the time is right, I will know.