I’ve had a weird couple of days. Emotionally it’s been really rough at times. I’m feeling lots of feelings of regret and that my life has meant nothing. I have nothing to show for it and if I were to die, I think it would be more of a hassle to try to put together a service that appears like I had friends, or family or any impact on this world. For the record—I am NOT suicidal and I know my life isn’t over, but there is a significant amount of time lost and it’s concerning to me. I can’t do anything about that, and the future isn’t going to starkly change because I am aware of that fact.. but I hope I can put a dent in world that I others can say “He meant something to someone, and did something with purpose and cause.”. I don’t know if that’ll ever come though. But, here’s to being aware.

It's cold today. 25 F currently and it’s just gonna get colder. I’m ready for nicer weather. Let’s get through February quick. March it tends to warm up some and April/May is usually my favorite time for walking. I’m anxious to get back to it.