Dr. S,

I took the full dose of Adderall around 7am and took the Wellbutrin around noon. That seemed to work well, although I guess it remains to be seen if I have trouble going to sleep. Or more trouble than usual, I guess.

I know I said yesterday that I have been keeping the cleaned areas tidy. However, I just got back from walking the dogs and when I looked around, I realized that isn't true. My kitchen counters are ok in comparison to how they were, but I don't think I can claim they have been maintained. There are also dishes in my sink even though I unloaded the dishwasher yesterday. My nightstand is almost as bad as before.

Only my laundry cart is in as good a state as it was after I cleaned. The area by the washer/dryer isn't terrible, but there is a towel on the floor as well as some underwear that I'm pretty sure ought to be in a laundry basket or something. I mean rather than my dresser. I'm trying to avoid saying dirty underwear because that sounds so dramatic, like I **** my pants or something.

Part of it is that I've been sleepy from the Adderall reduction. But I can't pretend that has been so bad that the renewed messiness doesn't reflect at all on me.

Feeling a bit discouraged, to be honest. And I'm conflicted about what my goal should be today. My impulse is to say I will tidy all the previously cleaned areas and load the dishwasher. But my impulses always seem to end up being too much. I have to consciously make a goal that seems too small.

So idk. I also need to go to the store, which I hate doing.

Feeling bummed.