Ugh, I have to see you tomorrow. You probably thought that at some point today when you looked at your schedule. I've been hardcore isolating. "Haven't left the house since I got home from the hospital" isolating. I tried being around my mom but I flipped out at her and threatened suicide (impulsively, I didn't really mean it things were just intense), and R just called me and I actually answered but I didn't talk other than "hi." "yes" "no" "OK" and "love you, bye." I'm still having massive difficulties with side effects from my meds. I've decided to skip the next injection. I would rather deal with the psychosis than this, although I know that almost guarantees another hospitalization.
Did you call my mom? You said you would to get her to realize how important it is I get on medicaid but she never said anything to me but again I've been avoiding everyone.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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