I am feeling that as a bipolar, romance is too painful. It's so complicated with basically being two people in one, a manic one and a depressed one. It's too confusing for a partnership.

I find the pain of relationships far outweighs the pleasure of them. I stumbled into an online relationship this Summer which ended badly. Sure, i was on cloud nine while it went on, felt like i was walking on air and hugely flattered by all the attention he lavished on me.

But then it ended after just a month and it's taken me five months to recover from it. I shaved my head, i was so upset when we broke up and i'm still suffering the consequences of that act of minor self-harm.

I am finally feeling like myself again and happy to be single and treasure my freedom, independence and privacy. I sure hope this is the last time i will go thru this painful rollercoaster of emotions.

I'm 55 so this was likely my last time being a fool for love and good riddance!