I sense that I'll be building a lot more self awareness and will be doing a lot of deep thinking this year... I'll have a lot of insights - And it will all come with pain.

I don't want my parents to die right now - Not yet.. I wouldn't be able to handle that. They've both had cancer.

Life is short.. I'm so nihilistic sometimes. I think so much.. but I want to think more.. I want to shape the patterns of reality in my favour.

I want to cry.