My boyfriend died 20 months ago. The first 4 months were awful. I didn't even want to live. Then I got better and my heart healed. For many months I'ld been doing very well. I could smile thinking about him. I had a happy Christmas. A few days ago I started having post-holiday blues. Now, suddenly, I miss him so bad.

I miss being wanted by him. I miss being loved by him. I miss him. I want him. I need him. But he's gone. He can't come back to me. I cry and cry. Oh please.