I took way too many drugs to sleep last night. Not too many to be unsafe, just too many for me. I took 50mg seroquel but as soon as I laid down I felt super restless so I had to get up and take Xanax, stil felt restless AND binged and got mad at myself, and was still very anxious and had to take another dose of Xanax. All in all got about 6 hours of sleep but not enough to sleep it off. I knew I’d never be able to get to work on time because it was still too dangerous for me to drive at 7am. It still is now at 8:30 but I almost wish I was there because I am very uncomfortable and feel restless and agitated still and I feel like SH just to release this negative energy.

I called out completely bc I think I’m going to have to take more Xanax right now to calm down enough and that’s going to sedate me even more. And this is the the last dose I have, I’m out until cvs deigns to provide me with more.

Gonna try to distract myself with a movie or something. Eventually I have to get to the grocery store for real bc I’m supposed to bring fruit to work for a little party we’re having for one of our teammates. But right now it’s 12 degrees so no.