Hi all,
Another weird day for me. I watched parts of my mom’s high school friend’s funeral livestreamed. It really hit me hard at moments. Again, I feel like an absolute piece of trash because my feelings are all about me, not him. I did meet him once and he was a very nice guy. It is very clear he was well liked, loved, and a breath of life wherever he was. His funeral service was rather beautiful and full of stories and “Yeah, that was John” moments. Here I am throwing myself a pity party knowing if I were to die I wouldn’t have the same. I will say it, I am the absolute worst.
I have therapy tomorrow – I guess I should bring this up since it’s so upsetting to me. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. Today just hasn’t felt right for me. Here’s to hoping the days get better. I was just talking about how my medicines seem to really have helped me so much… let’s hope they can get me through this rough patch.