I did get to the grocery store once it warmed up to a balmy 25 degrees. I wish I had been able to go earlier because it was SO crowded. We are supposed to get a big snowstorm tomorrow night but I’ll believe it when I see it. They keep going back and forth because the storm keeps moving offshore and then back toward the shore and then off again. Anyway everyone was there panic buying since if it does snow significantly they won’t be able to do their normal weekend grocery run. I’m glad I took off work today because if I had to go at 4pm I would have never made it through without a panic attack.

I fell asleep in the am without even realizing it and then I fell asleep again in the afternoon. Cvs did have my meds ready though which shocked me.

Even when RS came home I was in such intense emotional pain I just laid on his lap and clutched a blanket. I kept telling myself it’s just an emotion and it won’t kill me but it was so deep, the pain was twisting around my heart and chest and all I could think about was SH to release it. I knew watching tv wouldn’t help so I finally just said I needed to go out. Anywhere. Out. RS was nice enough to take us to dinner at a restaurant we usually visit in the spring/summer as it’s right on the Delaware River. We go walking in the state park and then to this restaurant where they have outdoor seating. Clearly we did not eat outdoors nor walk in the park but it was a nice decent drive and brought back memories of summer and warmer weather. I’m doing better now.