Angel,
Honestly, the demands you are making of me in posts, in NM, in e-mail have just become a barrage. I have to cope with some major issues of my own in real life right now, especially a severe concussion and neck and shoulder injuries from the car crash. I told you that meant that on some days I'd not be able to get to the computer. But beyone that, I'm afraid you are making emotional demands on me, demanding a degree of 24/7 support from me and me alone, that I cannot physically or mentally or emotionally provide. This relationship is beginning to feel like a siphon draining off what emotional and psychological and physical strength I have. I can't be your sole support system, and, I'm sorry, luv, being your sole support system can't become my life. I must confess that I'm disappointed that you resorted to fabricating an emergency situation here. That should tell you that you need professional assistance -- the kind your T or a hospital is qualified to provide, but I as a layman am not. I didn't come to this board because I was perfectly healthy; I have issues and needs that demand my attention, too. Please take more of the support you need from the others here and from your physicians. I'm just not up to it. I don't have the education in psychiatric medicine and I don't have the capability. I'm one of the walked wounded, too -- now moreso than ever, with the post-concussive syndrome. I think need me to be Superman, but the fact is, that's something I'll never be for anybody. Cheshire Cat.