You are a deeply caring person... you have a huge.. huge amount of courage.. and love for your brother.. because you are so concerned...

please have compassion and love for yourself...not this hatred...

really look at your post... you were very young... confused... and did not understand... you can't at that age...

you were hurt... by an adult... and the one that you should hate is the adult that hurt you... sweetie.. not this hatred of you the child.....