Yeah here I am, I just wrote him an 8 page letter and want to mail it. I will hold it though. It isn't mean but my moods and thoughts tend to change frequently.

I never feel good contacting him and not hearing back. In this case, he is gone and I'll end up obsessing about him coming back to my letter.

Seriously, why am I putting myself through this? I can just quit and it'll be gone!