Hi, english is not my fist lenguage so sorry about my writing and form of expression in advance.
So im terrified of getting in a relashionship, but really want to because im gonna be 25 in a few days and there is a lot of things that i want to experience, and i feel like im losing my life alone.

I do have a few motives to why im terrified of dating:
i have been sexually abused when i was a child.
During my teenage years been rejected due to being to tall and thin (i had a anorexyc body).
Bullying caused by my colleagues destroyed my sense of self love.
And a few weeks ago i was roofied in a friends party, causing me to be hospitalized.

I feel like every time i try to take a step foward on feeling better, something awful happens to me.My mistrust of people have gone trough rough now, for a week im crying myself to sleep.
People say that i look great now, i was able to bulk up doing phisical exercises but every time i look myself in the mirror i still see that me that can count his ribs.

Im going to a psycologist, shes been helping me a lot: my experience so far with her:

So she told, me to seek people in the areas that i like, but just the act of going to the person or even invading her personal space sounds terrifying to me, i've been trying to do it but whenever i start walking towards the person, i freeze.

My psycologist says that is a reaction of my mind not wanting to "invade" the person's space, and i should not worry about it, and it happens beacause during my childhood my personal space and purity were taken away, and this is the way a react to it.

If i may ask do you have any tips on how to approach and chat people without freezing?

Thank you.