I never got over my anxiety today. Nothing worked. I had 2 valium and 2 ativan and my normal meds and no luck. I did eat an entire bag of Goldfish crackers but everything else was in moderation. I just feel like I am retaining water and its frustrating and physically uncomfortable. My sister and her family are going to a wedding with about 10 other people next Saturday and then they want to come over on Sunday to celebrate my mom and mine birthdays which are on Friday and Saturday. They asked me if I was ok with it since they know I have stuff going on but its also my moms birthday too and I felt a bit put on the spot so I said yeah they could come.

But pretty much today was just filled with bad anxiety. But not like full blown panic anxiety. It was more like just annoying anxiety that was ok as long as I had the TV on but got bad again once I turned it off and meds didn't help it. I did find my TV remote so I can watch TV and not just DVD's. I just started season 6 of Project Runway and I plan on watching the movies Superstar and Drop Dead Gorgeous tommorow.