Welcome back, Raven, and whoever you were! I agree with both of your responders. Talking to a counselor and reading the suggested book. Sounds to me like you might be remembering a sexual experience, but I'm no expert. If you did have one, remember it's not your fault and nothing to be ashamed of. But I would talk to someone to validate your memories before announcing it to your dad or other relatives....

And yes, things have slowed down here as we've changed names, originally being Psych Central, and we oldies are getting used to things. I hope we will pick up again at some point.