Hi guys. I’m new here; I’ve started seeing a therapist who seems to really be helping me. We are doing EMDR. I struggle with many things but Bipolar 2 is my number one. I think my other diagnoses are due to bipolar.
Anyways. My moms whole family is bipolar; some of us are diagnosed and seek help, most of them refuse to admit it and laugh in our faces when we try talking about our diagnosis. I’m currently feeling a manic episode. I have become aware of my feelings all of a sudden and 2 days ago, I noticed my head was really loud, my eyes were big, I was spending lots of money, making risky plans. Of course I stopped because I recognized it but I’m so worried it’s going to be full blown soon because each day has gotten worse and worse. Someone give me some tips or positive vibes please. This is the most miserable thing; I’m trying to leave my mom and her family behind because they’re so bad for me and my mental health but I’m constantly reminded by this disorder that I can’t run away from the problems. Im so overwhelmed and sad but I can’t show that. I physically can’t show that I’m feeling sad, I’m too hyper and bouncy. Because I’m manic. I want to be sad though I really do. 😭