I feel a bit off physically today. Just some coughing and light headeness and nausea. I had a headache too but I took a tylenol so its starting to go away. I am staying away from any type of caffeine so I can avoid mixing benzos. Yesterday I had a glass of iced coffee and a Coke which is why things sucked so badly. I slept well last night but I still feel worn out today. Some kid on The Today Show had both kidney and lung cancer. Like I needed to hear that. The 2 organs I'm currently having issues with. Although I think the lung thing is getting better I was just coughing a lot mainly this morning.

To be honest I've had a lot of what ifs running through my mind lately, mainly about what happened 2 years ago and its been bothering me and I'm not even sure my current therapist is equipped to help me deal with these thoughts and feelings that are creeping up now and will probably stay around until March 17th. But I just have a lot of thoughts running through my brain and I don't even know where to begin to process them.