I feel like I need help to not see whatever my son does or doesn't do as terrorizing me. I don't know why I was seeing it that way. Maybe it's because I''m anxious all the time so when he was having trouble making the eye appointment that added to what is already a high level of anxiety. I fill with dread every time I get a notification that I have a message from my son. I don't know what new, unsolvable problem he'll present to me. But I don't have to react that way. This is not a way to live and I need to do something about it.