Tbh what I am talking about was I was supposed to start my transtion on my birthday 2 years ago. But I had to get off a med first. So it got pushed back to March 17th. And then the video sessions started the day after I got my first shot. I found out later I could have gone off the med cold told turkey. It was a birth control.

So I could have started my transtion on my 27th birthday and also had a number of in person sessions with my transfernce therapist before the remote sessions began. So I don't know whats upsetting me more. The fact I didn't begin my transition on my birthday or that she didnt see it happen in person. But this same thing, these emotions happened last year and I got so down and depressed about it. But now I have the valium situation and the health issues added onto it this year.

I also think I'm having legit withdrawels from going down to 2 valium a day and I may need to call my pdoc and tell him whats up.