@Sapien:

I'm so sorry Sapien.

I felt that way for most of yesterday too. I even called a crisis line. I cried twice, sobbed actually.

I don't know if this will help you, but what helped *me* feel better today was being more active and getting things done. It started when it was warm enough to take my dog out and two of my young neighbors were out and it made me happy to see them and their dogs.

Then i did three trips-worth of recycling that's been hanging around. Then i did some minor dog-grooming. Then i tidied the bathroom counter and washed the cup, sink, faucets, counter and mirror in preparation for having workmen in soon. Then i did some minor self-care. Then i did a few dishes that have been hanging around, mocking me.

It felt good to observe my obligations to my dog and to get a few things done to fight off the feeling of helplessness that engulfed me yesterday.

Anyways, that's what worked for me, but i'm surely no expert in managing emotional pain. Hope you get some relief soon!