I’m new here and I hope I do this check in right
I have bipolar 2 and am currently on nothing for it. I took myself off of my meds a year ago because they weren’t helping me and my psych hasn’t put me back on them. I’ve been rapid cycling the last 6ish-9 months.
I got some bad news on 2 Thursday's ago (the 20th) and it immediately threw me into a low mood. I called into work for 3 days, I laid in bed and did absolutely nothing but cry. This past Friday, the 29th I noticed I was moving and talking really fast. I haven’t slept well, I’m forgetting to brush my teeth, eat, shower, everything because I make myself so busy constantly. I’m spending lots of money in just 3 days, and I’m starting the risky parts…. I’ve worked so hard at trying to help myself and this just feels like a kick in the face. I truly wish I could just feel normal. I’m constantly hypomanic or depressed; right now I’m full manic. I see my psych doc on the 8th. How do I tell her I’m ready for meds for this? Because I really don’t want to feel like this anymore. My roommate and I aren’t getting along; partially due to my short temper but she is just so negative and throws me into my episodes sometimes. She is a trigger. She is just like my mom who I am trying to leave behind as she is so so so bad for me…