Hmm OK so it's a lot more like, just drama than what it sounded like before. That's what it seems from my outsider perspective.

Please ignore the drama and focus on yourself for a nice while!



Sounds like you are slowly getting used to the thought of separation. That's totally OK.


(From earlier posts I've read)


I mean. Psychology alone will not fix this situation.



As for the bolded. It's OK to drop compassion for a while. No one feels compassion constantly. It's OK to drop that. And he's not simply "having such difficulty controlling behaviour". He just doesn't want to, because it would be inhumane effort, and you shouldn't subject yourself to inhumane efforts like this either, it's only burning you out.

And I will quote this separately as it's very important. This is a Catch-22: "I don’t know how we would separate exactly because we don’t have money to support two households until things improve (hopefully they will)"

They will not improve. Hence Catch-22 in this reasoning.

He can support himself on his new job, or he can go on disability or something, don't worry about his financial situation. He will get himself together or will find professional help if he's forced to. He's not going to die without you.

So there'll be enough money to do two households alright. It won't be your responsibility how he will earn a living for himself. You do have the right to separate or even divorce if things do not work for YOU.

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I think this was my last post here because I don't want to be overdoing giving advice, just pick up from it whatever resonates with you and I just wish you the best luck!