@otroo, grieving is extremely hard. Things will get a little less painful with time. I'm sure your wife would want you to get well. So sorry for your loss!

@bizi, I second what buddha1too wrote. And often it takes many tries. Persistence is key. Please don't be too hard on yourself.

@~Christina, great news about Cindy! It's such an encouraging sign. I assume she's a fighter. She has a lot to look forward to moving near you and Steve.