When I first talked to L on the phone, I knew I was going to get attached. Then after I had my intake with her, I was attached. I couldn't stop thinking about her. I wanted to see her asap. But I was still with T for another month and I couldn't. But I had a ton of guilt feelings for already being attached to L. I felt like I was cheating on T. That feeling lasted a long time. Especially when T came back from maternity leave and I chose to stay with L. I knew I was making the right decision for me, but I felt like I abandoned T. Both L and T worked together reassuring me, encouraging me, and supporting my decision. Now, after almost 3 years, I've come to terms with my attachment to L. It's intense still, but becoming more secure. And I no longer feel I've abandoned T. T is still there when I need her. I now have two great therapists.

I think it does get better. But I found talking to both of them and both of them working together really helped me come to terms with it all.