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Originally Posted by Rive.
No, you did not expect too much...
They acted pretty poorly. First that temp T who can only see you around easter, I mean what the heck!? I would also have assumed she would find a location and fit me in, asap not months away. To me it shows lack of caring. Secondly, J just dropped you too. That is a pretty pathetic move from her. She can't even help you now?! It's too much for her to pull her finger out and help someone she made promises to. Add further lack of ethical responsibility by not answering as well.
I am sorry you are struggling to find a T but frankly, you deserve better than these two miscreants. Shame on them.
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Thank you so much for reading and replying, and for telling me I didn't expect too much. Sometimes I think I am going crazy, the therapeutic relationships are so hard to manage for someone that struggles with even a normal relationship. I re-read the last email I sent Temp T and in it I definitely say I will be in touch, probably in the new year. I did say 'possibly nearer spring' but I fully would have expected her to at least check in with me before booking herself out fully, given that I did say probably in the New Year. I don't know, I think the most annoying thing is that she didn't even bother to reply to me, but then that kind of summed up how she was when we saw each other for those 6 weeks. Very distant and very boundaried. In some ways I think that's what I need because it makes me angry, and anger is something that I need to learn to feel about my past, but I don't know.
And yeah, I am a bit shocked about J's response to it all to be honest. It feels like she has done a complete U-turn on me. I mean, I am used to being let down by people, it's why I decided many years ago NEVER to let anyone close to me, but these people try and convince you that 'connection to others is important', and then they go and do things like this. It's meaning I have to work really hard not to go back to that shut down place again.