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Originally Posted by ArtleyWilkins
I reached a place where I didn't feel the need for therapy - it wasn't going to get me any farther.
I needed to rejoin life. I needed to find my interests and nurture them. I found activities that got me out of the house, out among people with common interests. I found ways to get out my head and into my life again.
It raised my confidence. It gave me real-life supports that have been lasting (and I don't have to pay for them - LOL). It gave me a sense of control and peace. It allowed me to move forward instead of constantly looking backward.
Honestly, that became the most healing and healthy way to live for me.
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Thanks, I would love to be fully at this point already. I am trying to do this and do *finally* have a very strong conviction about how I do not need to go so deep anymore, but there are still things that want to get in my way of trying to do the above about recovery. I do know what my interests are and do have motivation, but I got really rusty about all of it, about just living life, *and* those things above still get in my way. I feel a constant need to talk about relationships stuff. So that these things do not get in my way.
But yes, I half relate to what you wrote.
Like, I am now getting out of the house more other than doing work and other than just me working hard on all my goals. I am also finding a bit more support real life outside therapy and outside the anonymous support groups and the like, but I have to be very cautious about that for now. .... Yeah, I also like not having to pay for it, lol, but then the anonymous groups are/were free anyway. Free listeners are available too but I kind of no longer have any desire or need to talk to them, by now I feel quite turned off by any kind of deeper or longer one-on-one talk about my issues.
Where I do not relate is I never felt like I am constantly looking backward. More like constantly trying to move forward and constantly having to deal with obstacles in my way. And I'm quite fed up with that feeling too. BUT I do relate in that I realise that if I was to try and go deeper again with therapy or anything like that, very deep or long talks, it would feel like looking or going backwards. I did not have this feeling until recently, I think.
Also you mention getting out of your head. Yeah, I mean I have to go about that really cautiously too. I am doing it though, yeah, but I did have to be very in my head to go deep enough before. I will never know how much of that was really necessary and how much of it was a waste of time, but I know I did need to learn and do some extra reflection I never did before, etc.
But yes, I do want to get out of my head alright and I'm actually doing better at that part than at some of the rest of recovery. Again thanks for mentioning this, because now I do realise that anything that gets me MORE in my head is probably not going to be beneficial to me anymore. Therapy included.