Thank you Candc for the very profound reply. For months now, my mind have been asking simar questions...mainly, how everyone's live will change or be effected if I carry through with intent to divorce. And there's no way for me to make a list of that sort, I'm not a psychic, I do not know the future.

And while I continue to stay in this so called marriage, I ask myself if this is what I want my children to see? Am I dooming their future relationships by faking what we have as a good relationship? They don't see us communicating or getting along. Do I want my children to settle and simply be happy with what they have or do I want them to yearn for the better?

I'm not seeking a romantic type of relationship. We're never good with PDA and I'm not asking for that to change. I am, however, wanting a relationship where we can openly communicate and make jokes and laugh and cry together...

My spouse and I can no longer do that because we're constantly walking on eggshells around one another. We can no longer be honest with one another because everything is so political and we are on opposite ends. I'm sure the children can see the tension between us and how we dont do anything together anymore....it's an unhealthy relationship even when we hold our tongues and not argue. We're both seeking to spend time by ourselves and I'm afraid the only people who suffer through this "lack of communication" are the children.