don't think i ever posted here before ....

In a very small nutshell .... abused, mother was one of the abusers ..... shut her out of my life .... taken me years and years to start healing. Out of hospital for medical reasons, in pain, want to shut everyone out, be on my own. Need to talk to my mum ..... why after all this time am i missing her? Maybe the small girl in me needig her mum? My mum was never a proper mum, never protected me etc etc ....but i feel like i need her now and we havent spoken in months. She doesn't care about me or my family. I just want my mum.

sorry if this is in the wrong place ..... Jinny/Treasure