Dear reader. I didn’t slept well at all these days. Less and less sleep. Many long hours at work. Them take your work home and still work. All this documentation, preparation, all this administrative work while you still need to bring peace of mind to the students plus follow the plan, make sure they have the right adaption each and every one of them to reach the knowledge in every subject and lesson. You can say I kind of know how American teachers have it (since I follow them on social media), that many also have second jobs. So I will not pity myself. Sure, many of them don’t have bipolar or need to take sleeping pills to get at least 5-6h sleep. But still.

I figured now that I can’t work like this anymore. But I can’t unfortunately not look for another job in another town since I have some things to take care of first. Let say to save my rumour as a good teacher who always was there for ANY colleague, boss, parent and student. Always! I don’t want to leave my job without my dignity I deserve to have for all these years. Almost seven in row at same place. But this, this culture of silence. That is something some Swedish teachers are very, very good at. Also, groupings. And we are supposed to be role models? And teaches?

That’s why I’m upset about all of this. Because those people don’t give a crap what diagnosis you have or how much work you put in. Not even how you always is there for them, their students and entire school. They will only care about themselves, be quiet when it’s injustice and follow the motto “speaking is silver, silent is gold”.

No matter what, dear reader, I will do my job and keep my head high. And always be polite, helpful as I always was - and have a good simile.

So my divine advice to you, dear reader, is to never ever lose faith in yourself. There will be some difficult moments. But have faith in yourself. Always.

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