I done f—ed up today regarding meds. Completely forgot my AM meds, second time in a week! Worst part was my med alarm went off and I checked it off because I thought I had taken them, but when I went to take my night meds I realized I hadn’t. I’ve changed the time of the alarm to 15 mins earlier.

I also took my evening med an hour late because I got wrapped up in a “documentary”, it was about vampire hunters in America and it was SO FAKE but presented as 100% real and it was glorious, I couldn’t turn it off. Then I proceeded to read ranker and bored panda for two hours, overstimulating myself even further.

Now it’s 11:35pm and I can’t sleep. I’ve just done the dishes. It’s too late to take the PRN seroquel, I won’t get up.

I knew something was off because I was a bit irritable in the morning at work (one of the kids has this loud piercing screech as a laugh and I can’t stand it, but it’s not her fault obvs). But then I got kinda giddy, which I am now. I’m trying to think of what else I can do to tire myself out but I don’t want to wake anyone up. I’m very clumsy and drop/crash into things so if I try to clean I’m likely to make a lot of noise accidentally. I did the dishes very carefully to minimize clanking of ceramic, the steel stock pot, pans, and silverware.

I guess I can try the waterfall sounds, that dull white noise might help me cancel my scattered thoughts.