Took the 300mg of gabapentin last night. It's a dreamy gabaminergic. Slightly fast heart rate - I'll have to wonder about that for the next month.

I should tell my mom that I may be difficult with mood for the next month. I'll keep the phenibut dose at 500mg a day.

It'll be interesting to see how I do while prolonging the Invega Trinza an extra 3 weeks. Maybe extra positive symptom - Fun???

I really liked how I went to sleep early around 1-2 weeks ago and also skipped the beta blocker + 10mg olanzepine dose. I woke up in the middle of the night and my thoughts were so clear (Although I couldn't focus at all and it was hard to absorb information).

Not sure what to do today.. I woke up at 10am, made coffee, sat around. I should make a list. I work tomorrow so tonight I'll find a podcast to listen to while at work.

Then I get to deposit the monthly check. Both me and my mom are saving up a lot of money because rent is only 600 a month for both of us. In the old place, it was 2100 a month. Cleaning that place up was stressful. Everyone partied like crazy in that place - I barely remember anything.

I was annoyed last night and a bit suicidal. I felt really bad cuz my moms friend was over and they were talking loud, dramatic etc and I'm already dealing with existential dread almost every day. My mom was showing her friend the spots on my skin and I freaked out a little - I said "I will live only 2-5 years" and she said "No.. You'll live a very long time" and I said "No I'm serious".. My mom said "That's just his delusions etc".. But anyways yeah today I feel really good.