No wonder you are exasperated with me. As I find others increasingly intolerable so I become more and more intolerable. Why did I cancel two weeks in a row and then throw my toys out of the pram because I feel disconnected from you? Because I am fool with the heart of a toddler, that's why. I am not surprised that you are ignoring me, but my surprise won't stop me from digging in for a rupture. I wish I had grown into an adult at some point throughout my 46 years.