Thank you (and everyone else who responded to this post). I'm just afraid that they'll get in there and find the biopsies were wrong and this is cancer. There's a 7-10% chance of that and I know my radiologist didn't like what he was seeing on mammogram or ultrasound. So that makes me somewhat anxious. Some of what they found with the biopsy is pre-cancerous and I am so grateful that I've been on this highly monitored thing or I wouldn't have had it show up until next year is all likeliehood. So we caught anything very early and that's good.

There was one point that the radiologist recommended an MRI so I'm going to ask the surgeon about that. I don't want to have surgery and then have them recommend it then.

It just feels like I have no control over my life. Hence the depression. And knowing we're about to be snow and iced in doesn't help much.

Oh well. It will work out. In the worst case scenario they need to do further treatments after surgery. I'll survive. I really wish it weren't in the middle of the pandemic but whatever. I guess it will keep me from feeling like I'm missing out on too much after surgery.

The good thing is that once I'm through this I'm going to staart leading a zoom Bible stuff for my church, something that has been missing for about 15 months when the leader had to quit abruptly. I'm not starting it until I'm sure I don't have cancer treatments but when I'm cleared I'll enjoy it.