The gig has been postponed to July. That's a real disappointment. I don't have anything else planned either until then. I honestly don't think I can handle another 5,5 months of nothing but loneliness and misery. Feel like I made all the wrong choices. I know there's a pandemic and times are **** but all around me I see people still living their life and here I am, no friends, not bonded with any co-workers, almost afraid of people, only leaving the house to go grocery shopping or for a walk by myself. Getting out of bed in the morning is so hard
I can't go on like this but I have sunken so deep it's going to take a massive amount of effort to get out of this hole and I have zero energy or motivation and now I'm just rambling on here when I should start working.