Trying to decide if I need to go to the hospital for SH. I haven't done anything but the thoughts are pretty severe. Having kind of delusional thoughts about it, won't go into it bc I don't want to trigger anyone. I have told T part of it but not today's stuff which is kind of graphic in my head. My eyes feel dark and I'm like really anxious and stuff. I can feel it in my chest. I don't want to be hospitalized but I don't know. I might need to go. Delusional thoughts are better than they were though, I think, so that's good. Hallucinations are okay. I know I need to talk to T but I don't want to.