I am not ready to go back to work yet. My physical symptoms are still a mess. Especially today. When you tell me you want me to apply for work immediatly, its tough. Because I did have a therapist push me before I was ready and it ended up turning into a disaster and I messed up a good oppoturnity. That has me worried so I wan't to be for sure this time that I am ready. And deep down now is not the right time. I'm going to give it another month. I have my finances worked out for the month. But when I get pushed that hard I can sometimes get impulsive in a bad way.