Ah good point! I just texted T and let her know the severity of the thoughts and since I am at work I told her I would check back in with her once I am done with work. Maybe the urges will have dissipated by then. Hopefully. If she thinks I need hospitalization I will definitely go to a hospital that has a psych ward rather than one I have to get transferred to. Good to think of these things a head of time. Trying to stay safe can be a danged hard thing!